For months, I've had this refrain/response popping into my head on the regular: I'm not doing it right.
Whatever it is... I'm surely not doing it right.
I'm not staying home right, not going to work right, not reading the right books, not following the right people, not engaging enough, not posting the right things, not saying it right or loud enough or to the right people, not shopping right, not making enough masks... or I did the right thing but now it's not the right thing. Ugh... yes, I feel paralyzed at times!
I am constantly reminding myself -- way more than usual -- to not worry about what anyone else thinks or what anyone else is doing.
I'm doing my best. I keep reminding myself of that, too. ((sigh)) It's so obvious that not everyone is doing their best, though, y'know? Starting at the top. Too many people are being selfish, rude, and aggressively angry.
It's crushing. It's hard to feel good about Things. Anything.
I feel like I'm doing that right! It gives me a glimmer of hope, even as we seem to be watching it all burn down around us.
OK. Well, I needed to get that out.
See you tomorrow.